There’s been more on my mind when I sleep than usual. I guess I wake up more driven, but at the same time, i feel less satisfied. Sometimes I can’t wait for the next day to start, sometimes I don’t want the next day to come. And its the same things i think about .. Just different attitude. I could talk about it, but I kinda like holding a few things to myself. Eapecially if this one is so personal.

As for tonight. I’m evaluating myself, I can be much better. I don’t think I’m where I should be by any means, but admitting is part of the process I suppose and I think it’s long overdue some action is taken. So without figuratively jumping to what may be a social suicide, i’ll do what I can to at least get noticed more.

2012, you’ve been much better. At least i’m making better of you than I did last year with my ungrateful ass.

Time to be risky, high risk. High reward.